Mrs. I.N. Phelps Stokes
Davis MacMillan
After my girlfriend moved out, I taped a full-sized print of John Singer
Sargent's 'Mr and Mrs I. N. Phelps Stokes' to my living room wall. It took
a while to get a big enough copy. The Met didn't offer prints, and none of
the websites I visited had anything over 48 by 36. My girlfriend had taken
the couch when she left — actually she'd taken a lot of the furniture — so
I was looking for a print that took up most of the wall, a print that
filled space. The Phelps Stokeses were perfect, and had the added advantage
of being the sort of thing that my ex would have vetoed when we were
together.
I had been going to the Met a lot and walking through the European
paintings — Jesus and Mary, Zeus and Europa, Judith and Holofernes — until
I got to the American section. I had started doing this before the
break-up but my pace picked up afterwards. Mr. and Mrs. Phelps Stokes sit
high on the wall in one of the American section's first rooms. She's the
focus of the painting: her long legs covered by a starched white dress,
her torso by a tuxedo shirt topped with a square-shouldered black jacket
and matching black bow tie, the whole thing split along the meridian of
her waist by a black belt with a large silver buckle. She's holding a
white sun hat at an angle that can only be described as jaunty. Her
husband's hidden behind her. He has a slightly apologetic aspect, even as
a glare from the room's lights obscures his face.
To get a copy, what I ended up doing was taking a photo of the original on
my phone and having Kinkos blow it up. We settled on 96 by 72 because it
was the biggest that they could do. I was standing behind the attendant
while he worked with the photo — centering and cropping, zooming and
enhancing — when I had an idea. "Can you crop out the guy in the back?" I
asked.
The attendant gave me a funny look but at the time it seemed like a good
idea. The photo I'd taken was blurry at the top. He looked at me while I
cycled through possible explanations in my head but after a few seconds of
silence he said, "Sure," and the moment passed. When I got home I wondered
if he thought I was a creep.
She had, I thought, a perfect face. Or maybe it isn't perfect but it spoke
to me. Her cheeks are slightly pink, and she's looking into the distance
with what might be a smile. There's something about the way her head sits
on her shoulders, or really about the way that it sits on top of the tight
collar of her shirt, which pushes up in this sharp little angle like it's
trying to reach her ears or her jaw or just somehow touch more of her,
that makes me feel like she's about to burst free, not of her clothes or
not just of her clothes, but of the painting or the room or something
else, of Earth I guess. She might just be happy. She might just be smarter
and happier than me. And I would go to the museum, and later I would get
home, open the door and walk into my living room and stare at her and
think, if only I could meet a woman like that.
So there were some low moments after the break-up. There were nights
where I would sit in the living room on one of my few remaining chairs and
watch television while talking to her. Nothing involved, nothing major,
just lists of things that I had to do at work the next day or errant
comments on whatever was on TV. I never took it seriously.
Then, as things go, I met someone. At work of all places. We flirted in
the hallway for a while, by the watercooler, then we flirted at a few
professional happy hours before progressing to flirting privately over
drinks at an Irish bar down the street from my apartment. "Do you want to
come over?" I asked.
"Yes," she said, and I realized I'd forgotten the painting. I worried the
whole walk home. I realized that I'd always known that it was weird: this
giant modified portrait of a 19th century society lady. I thought about
blaming my ex but I was fairly certain that wouldn't be better.
"And this is my original John Singer Sargent," I said to her, to my
coworker, as we moved through the living room and into my bedroom.
"I didn't know they made prints that big," she said, and I told her,
hustling her out of the room as I did, that I'd had it custom-made.
The next morning I came out of the bathroom to find her staring at the
painting. We were on our way to breakfast. "You stole her husband," she
said, pointing to the empty space at the top.
"That's just how they made it," I said, but the words stayed with me. For
a while after, I was filled with the sense that Mrs. Phelps Stokes was now
trapped. She's alone, her companion has been taken away, and she's forced
to keep this beatific, confident look on her face. Her expression no
longer makes sense, but she can't change it. Inside, she's
screaming.
Thinking about this, I realized I couldn't throw the print out without
leaving her in that state. And I couldn't leave her in that state. So I
burned it, the print, in my bathtub — a Viking funeral. The smoke detector
went off until I pulled out its batteries.
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Davis MacMillan lives in New York.
"Mrs. I.N. Phelps Stokes" is a third-place winner for the Mythic Picnic Prize in Fiction.
Read DM's postcard.
Detail of oil painting on main page by John Singer Sargent: "Mr. and Mrs. I.N. Phelps Stokes" (1897).
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05-12-18
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