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Dear Wigleaf,
It's a short two-minute walk from my house to the paved path where I take
my dog almost every day. Trees line one side of the path, branches hanging
over for part of the way to create a kind of cool tunnel-like effect.
Plenty of squirrels as well as the occasional deer and periodic roving
gangs of wild turkeys. Plus people: people walking their dogs, people doing
what I'm doing.
For years the path had been precarious, wildly uneven in places, concrete
shifting over time, bumpy, imbalanced. Hazards galore. You had to pay
attention. You had to navigate the uncertainty, step by careful step, and
be aware of the potential for danger: tripping, ankles twisting and
spraining, old people losing their footing, falling. I guess that's me now;
I have weak ankles and will turn fifty-eight in a few months.
And for years my wife and I complained about the path. Complained to each
other, that is. When was the last time it was repaved? Had it ever been
repaved? Why had nothing been done for so long? Did the city know about
this lawsuit waiting to happen? Did our neighbors also complain and worry
about the likelihood of injury? We really should lodge a complaint.
Well, through no result of our actions (we never did contact the city,
never did lodge a complaint), one day last week workers showed up and began
repaving the path. I texted my wife the news. She texted back:
Miracle!
I can't believe they're finally doing it. Within a span of like five
hours the work was done, the path transformed. Flat, smooth, uniform, safe.
On the first walk on the newly repaved path, my dog looked confused. I
myself felt a little disoriented. This surprised me, because I'd been
desiring this change ever since we moved to this neighborhood. Sure, there
was relief and admiration at the pristineness of the path and appreciation
of the removal of myriad risks. But I found that I missed the old path, its
unruliness and obstinance, the way it was before, the imperfections and
funky charms, the vigilance and alertness required to avoid harm.
Certainly it's a better path now, better for the walkers and especially for
the old people. But there's also an unexpected mourning over what's passed,
what was, what first solidified my understanding of and relationship with
this path. And I do have a relationship with this path, as does my dog
(name: Jojo). It's where I step away from the world. It's where I pause and
ponder. It's where I relive memories from childhood. It's where I conjure
my dead parents. It's where I reconsider my parental mistakes. It's where I
try to solve the problems with the novel I'm working on. It's where I
wonder if I should be writing something else instead. It's where I put away
my phone and life and simply walk, be, absorb.
So thanks, path, is I suppose what I want to say with this postcard. I like
you now and I liked you then. Maybe at some point I'll remember you less as
you were, even though now, on today's walk, a gray and gauzy day, trees
touched with mist, I think: no, I won't forget, yes, I'll always remember.
AR
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W i g l e a f
02-01-25
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