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The Final Girl Prepares to Watch Her Season of American Horror Story
Meghan Phillips
The actress hired to play her is too old. She was barely 16 that
weekend at Camp Broken Rock, and the actress, though young (Jesus, so
young), is 25. She is 25 years old and beautiful, of course, with long limbs
and gigantic eyes. The actress reminds her of a deer. A deer's eyes flashing
in headlights from the side of the road. A deer's broken body by the side of
the road.
As a child, she loved Greek mythology. Prized her copy of D'Aulaires' over
all other books. She favored stories of Artemis, the brave and wild
huntress. Her favorite: a hunter stumbles upon Artemis bathing in a stream.
She turns him into a deer, sets his own hounds upon him.
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She had declined the offers from Ryan Murphy's people, declined the call she
was pretty sure was from Ryan Murphy himself. The consulting credit. The
associate producer credit. The money, enough to pay off both
their student loans, the car loan. Enough for a vacation, the first since
their frozen honeymoon in Rhode Island five years ago.
Her husband said he understood. No amount of money was worth, he stopped and
waved his hand at her torso, as if everything she'd been through was locked
there between her heart and her groin. He said he understood. He also said
he was too tired after another night of drama club rehearsals to do anything
more than eat a sandwich and go to bed. He said, Do we have to watch it
tonight? He said, I can try to stay up if you want.
But he falls asleep before the theme music starts, and she is alone with
herself. Her face reflected in the television screen, in the beautiful young
actress pretending to be her.
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When she was there in the woods, her friends already dead in the cabin the
car the boat house the stream, she thought of Artemis. She thought of the
story of Artemis and the deer as she ran, but she couldn't remember the
whole story. Couldn't remember who was the deer or why. Still, she had
pushed aside branches and tripped over roots and prayed, oh Artemis,
make me a deer.
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Meghan Phillips is the author of ABSTINENCE ONLY, a chapbook of flash fiction from
Barrelhouse Books. Her stories have appeared in Passages North, HAD, Pidgeonholes, X-R-A-Y,
and others, and have been anthologized in BEST MICROFICTION, BEST SMALL FICTIONS, and
THE WIGLEAF TOP 50.
Read more of her work in the archive.
W i g l e a f
03-22-22
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