hey wigleaf,

have you been feeling super old lately? have you been looking in the mirror and thinking jesus christ what have these past few years done to me? to my face? I have been doing a lot of that. I have also been thinking about my best friend, how we would watch late-night tv at our sleepovers. how we would watch monologues and sketches about monica lewinsky and bill clinton. how we would laugh at things but maybe we didn't know why we were laughing. how we didn't get the whole joke. I have been thinking also about the dancing baby from ally mcbeal. I have been thinking about how my best friend got me a rubber version of the dancing baby from ally mcbeal, how it was the funniest thing either of us could conceive of at that time. how "hooked on a feeling" came out muffled through a speaker in its plastic base while the baby gyrated its hips, faster, faster, arm perma-waving. sometimes I get stuck on wondering where my dancing baby went. I am at the point in my life where I am wondering if I should go on ebay and buy another dancing baby. I spent a lot of time when I was eleven wishing I was old enough to understand certain things, and now I am old enough and still do not understand.

anyway, I bought a serum and downloaded a meditation app. I will let you know if they help.

ttyl,

em