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The Shoal
Jiksun Cheung
The apparition materializes again in the back alley between Golden Horse
Nightclub and Swanky Joe's. The girl is dressed in the same faded gown and
trousers patched at the knees. She is on her haunches watching a spot in the
concrete as keenly as a black kite tracks a fish in the water.
Traffic is light at this time of the night, but even when a truck thunders
past, booming as it hits a rut in the asphalt, the girl doesn't look up; she
doesn't notice at all.
After some time, she begins to twirl her hands around each other as if
coiling an imaginary ball of twine, slowly at first, then quickening.
Suddenly she stands. She turns in the direction where there is nothing but
an overflowing dumpster, her eyes wide with excitement.
And then, as always, her smile turns to sadness and she vanishes again.
#
Before there was a back alley; before earth was dumped and compressed into
the shoreline to make new land for night clubs like Golden Horse, Swanky
Joe's, and numerous other establishments that have come and gone, there had
been a rocky shoal here where cuttlefish scoured the seabed.
Bobbing above this shoal, on the surface of the jet black water, is an aging
sampan.
The girl crouches at the edge of the bow. The moon is behind a thick veil of
clouds, so she must focus on the water. In her hand is a wooden spool from
which a fishing line extends. She tests the line: nothing yet.
The sea on one side is lit by the soft orange glow of gas lamps along the
waterfront. She has always wondered what it would be like to bed down on dry
land, not having the rhythmic churning of the sea to lull her to sleep. She
remembers the typhoon that raged for three days: even when the water was
like an angry god they chose to stay aboard, lashing their boat to the pier.
No, her home will always be here.
Her father lies sprawled beneath a green tarp at the back of the boat,
amongst netting and rope and all of their worldly things, his neck propped
at an angle, his eyes glazed, mind swirling. He swills from a bottle. The
bottle clinks against the deck.
She feels a tug on her finger: something has taken the bait. The line goes
taut. She responds with a snap of her wrist and begins to coil, hand over
hand, slowly at first, then, feeling the pull in the line, she doubles her
efforts.
She remembers the seasons before the sea turned barren: her mother, under
the tarp, stir-frying their bounty over a roaring fire, the line of hungry
dockworkers waiting at the pier; before her mother climbed ashore forever;
before her father spent more time with the bottle than the net.
The cuttlefish rises out of the water, its skin pale and slick.
"Look!" she says, turning around and dangling her catch. "Baba, we got one!"
The cuttlefish is lean, but she beams because it's the first this season and
she knows that every catch counts.
Her father eyes it, grunts, turns over.
A swell jostles the sampan and her weight shifts.
She feels herself falling backward into the open sea, and in that moment of
weightlessness, before slipping into murky oblivion in a tangle of rope and
fishing line, a thought enters her mind: if only it had been bigger.
#
The girl appears again in the back alley. Her fists coil in the air,
she stands, she turns, she offers something with her hands. She hopes her
father will see the magnificent cuttlefish on the line.
He never does; she never stops trying.
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Jiksun Cheung has work in SmokeLong Quarterly, Atticus Review, The Molotov Cocktail and others. He's from Hong Kong.
Read his postcard.
W i g l e a f
09-13-21
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