Just Like That Darren Nuzzo
I'm in the backseat of my car wrapping my arm in
t-shirts to look like a cast so when roadside assistance shows up to fix my
flat I can tell the man, probably a strong looking man, that I know how to
do it, that I know how to use the jack and do the thing with the bolts and
change a bad tire for a good one, "It's just that my arm is broken," and
with that, he won't see a twenty-seven-year-old kid, but rather a man bound
by injury, and I'll shrug off the sympathy, say I've broken bigger and
stronger bones before; and I'll try to reach for the toolbox that I keep in
the trunk for this very performance, yes, here's how it'll go: I'll reach
for it to show him that even now with the help of a capable body, I haven't
given up, neither effort nor pride, and I'll wince a bit, but not too much,
because if men are bonded by one thing, it's pain and how we deal with
it—and it's not of his business or mine what the pain actually is, a broken
arm or an insecurity, what matters is that we hurt and we limp along.
Darren Nuzzo is the author of I'LL GIVE YOU A DOLLAR IF YOU CONSIDER THIS ART.
Read his postcard.
Detail of oil painting on main page: "Night Singers," by Edward Henning (1955).
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