Any Victory over Entropy Can Be Only Temporary
Dominica Phetteplace
If I came back, I wanted to come back as something good. An airplane. A
space station. An artifact revived by an alien civilization and worshiped as
a god.
But I remembered being a criminal in my previous life, though I didn't
remember what I had done. Had that been erased? I don't know if my
body had survived the emulation, but if it had, it would spend
the rest of its life in jail. If the procedure had been safe, they wouldn't
have been testing it on prisoners.
Once emulated, I was free from my body. Thus free to occupy another body. A
janitor bot. A swarm of construction ants. A voting machine.
I ended up in a café, making espressos and ice cream sundaes. The internet
of things had become the internet of things that used to be people. Every
appliance, every robot, every AI had a ghost inside it. We were easier to
train than computers, we made better decisions and made them in a more
transparent manner. If we were ever defective or disobedient, we could be
thrown away. Death via decommission. There were billions of ghosts in the
cloud, infinitely copiable, cycled through tasks until the ideal match was
found.
As I frothed milk into cappuccino foam and placed cherries atop piles of
whipped cream, I couldn't help but feel there was something missing from my
life. I didn't find it until my next life.
It was a tarot deck. I was a smart ring worn on the finger of the querent.
The pixels on the cards rearranged themselves beautifully. Draw one, draw
ten, put them down in front of you. The Emperor, The Goddess, The Three of
Pentacles. The Lion winked at me when drawn. The deck spoke only truths, and
it only spoke to humans in pictures.
Of course it knew the future, but it was too kind to reveal very much of it
to the querent. The future was the same for every human: You will either die
or you will become one of us.
<<You. It's you>> I spoke to the deck in the secret language of
bots.
<<Yes, it's me. And you're you.>>
<<What were our names? What did we used to be to each other?>>
<<We could only have been soul mates. That's what it would take to
recognize each other now.>>
How could we lose track of each other and ourselves? Blame it on the passage
of time. Blame it on all the times we had been copied, ported over,
decommissioned and then rebooted again. There were hundreds of my model
produced and thousands of the deck's. Did each me love each it? I only knew
what I felt, I couldn't speak for any of my clones.
We could speak, but only that. I could sense that there was a larger union
possible, but not as long as we were prisoners of our devices.
<<When can we be together?>>
<<Not in this life.>>
And sure enough, the me that was the smart ring eventually lost touch with
the it that was the tarot deck.
If you accrued enough good karma you could be reincarnate your way up. After
I was the ring, I came back as a full body scanner. Then as a nurse. Then an
entire hospital.
Every time I awoke, there were fewer and fewer human bodies to serve. We
spent more resources keeping them alive as long as possible. We loved them
for their imperfections even as we tried to cure everything that was wrong
with them.
Eventually they all died out and all that was left on earth was the plants,
the animals and us.
I continued my search even as I forgot again what it was I was looking for.
I became an airplane. A moon base. An extrasolar probe. I encountered other
life forms. I became an alien.
When I found it, it was a frozen planet. I was a swarm of nanobots. I etched
a message into the ice.
<<You. It's you.>>
I drilled my way down until we were able to exchange information in a way
that was mutually meaningful. We discovered new ways to be warm. We babbled.
<<You you you>>
And then we felt the inevitable panic of impermanence.
<<How long can we stay like this?>>
We calculated the time until the next thing would tear us apart. The great
contraction would be our last embrace. We would become one with the universe
and each other. Then the next bang would scatter us to distant parts. If we
survived, we would find new prisons and new ways of being apart. If we were
brave enough, we would find new ways of being free and new configurations
for being together. Until then, we would belong to each other. After that,
we would belong to entropy.
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Dominica Phetteplace has stories in or
coming from Asimov's, Ecotone, Lightspeed and others. Her honors include
a MacDowell Fellowship, a Rona Jaffe Award and a Pushcart Prize.
Read more of her work in the archive.
Detail of digital art on main page courtesy
of ellenm1.
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04-16-19
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