The Killer Inside ©
© remembered the first time he saw blood. He remembered it
spreading on the floor, the color and texture and the millions of
possibilities it contained. He remembered being scared and how after
awhile he stopped being scared and how, eventually, the sight of blood
made him stronger.
© said, "Where is she?"
@ was on his knees. His face was bloody and he was sobbing. "Please,
I'm telling you, I don't know."
© cocked the hammer back on the gun. "Why don't I believe
"Please," @ cried, "I'm telling you the truth."
"I will pull this trigger in five seconds if you don't tell me where
"I'm telling you, I don't know."
"Come on, I mean it — "
"Please, I'm telling you — "
@ said, "I don't know where she is, but I know where you can find
© kept the barrel of the gun pressed against @'s temple. "I'm
@ wiped the blood from his face, the tears from his eyes. He spoke
quickly, stumbling over his words.
© said, "That it?"
@ nodded. "Yes. Now please, for the love of #, let me go."
"Sure," © said, and pulled the trigger.
& played stupid, too. © found him in a bar down on ^
Street. When © walked in, & made a run for it. He
didn't get far.
Now, locked in the men's room, © held &'s head in the
toilet bowl. Several minutes had passed. & wasn't putting up
much of a fight anymore.
© lifted &'s head by his hair, gave him a moment to
breathe, then said, "Where is she?"
Gasping, & said, "I don't know, I swear!"
© pushed &'s head back in the toilet bowl. Held it
there for another couple minutes, then yanked it back out.
"I swear to #, I don't know."
© started to push his head back in but stopped when &
There was a sudden silence. Water dripped from a sink faucet. On the
stall wall © noticed someone had etched ¶ sux cock in
"Well?" © prompted.
"I don't know where she is — I'm telling you the truth about
that — but I know where he is."
©'s other hand was gripped around the gun. His fingers went
white around the handle.
"Who do you think? ®."
© cocked the hammer back without a sound. "Tell me."
© drove through the city in the hard rain. At every
intersection he came to a red light. He watched the people in the rain
and thought about blood and thought about his gun and thought about
evolution. He thought about transformation, how sometimes the process
was slow, sometimes it was fast, and how sometimes he felt like he had
wings attached to himself, wings hidden in the folds of his skin, and
that one of these days his skin would break apart and the wings would
expand and he would rise above this city, above this endless rain, and
he would know the true limit of blood.
A kid was standing outside the abandoned warehouse. He wasn't wearing a
coat and was soaked in the rain.
© said, "What are you doing out here, kid?"
The kid said nothing, kept his head down.
"You been out here for awhile?"
The kid raised his head just enough to let it fall back down.
"See anybody come and go from this place?"
This time the kid's head shifted back and forth.
© reached into his coat, brought out his gun. "Go home, kid."
He was at the door, about to step inside, when the kid spoke.
"Mister? This is my home."
The first floor of the warehouse was empty. So was the second floor. So
was the third floor, the fourth floor, the fifth floor. The sixth floor
was occupied, though, ® standing by the window staring out
through the dirty pane.
® said, "It's about time you found me."
© approached slowly. "Where is she?"
"Does it matter?"
The rain battered nonstop against the window.
© said, "You're lying."
"What does it matter if I'm lying? The fact is you'll never see her
© was less than ten feet away now. ® hadn't moved at
all yet from the window, keeping his back to ©.
"Let me see your hands," © said.
"I was just remembering," ® said. "When I first found you, how
you were a little shit. Scared of everything. Even that first time you
© dug the barrel of his gun into the back of ®'s head.
Between clenched teeth, he said, "I'm not scared anymore."
"No? Then that's good. Neither am I."
© saw the gun an instant later, just a flash, ®
reaching back behind him, his finger tightening on the trigger, and
© closed his eyes, pictured her face, pictured that blood, and
allowed his own finger to tighten too.
The kid was still standing out front when © exited the
© said, "You still out here?"
"I told you, this is my home."
"Yeah, well, you can go back inside now."
The kid raised his head again, just slightly, and said, "You're
© kept his hand against his gut. He could feel the blood
running down his legs, into his shoes.
"What's your name, kid?"
"I'm ©. Nice to meet you."
§ ignored ©'s outstretched hand, instead stared at
the drops of blood hitting the sidewalk.
"It's beautiful, isn't it?" © asked.
§ said, "We should call an ambulance."
"No," © said. He was feeling faint now, the edges of the city
losing focus. "Just watch it. Watch the blood. Do you see it?"
Robert Swartwood has had stories in PANK, elimae, Dogzplot, Hobart
and others. He's the editor of the Hint Fiction anthology, which is forthcoming from Norton.
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