Tai Dong Huai
On any given day I'll get a call from Toni, my agent, telling me that
some client needs my hands. It's what I do. I'm a hand model, famous
from the wrists down.
You've seen us. We – and I speak of myself and my hands
collectively here – are the ones in the better magazines. We
hold champagne flutes gently by the stem, we model wedding and
engagement rings, we hold fresh fruit aloft. We're known as "beauty
hands." Long tapered finger, broad nail bed, coloration like slightly
toasted bread. We've worked as "hand-doubles" for some of the biggest
celebrities in Hollywood. I can't mention names. We even get fan mail.
Everything from send-me-a-picture-so-I-can-see-the-rest-of-you, to the
obvious "hand-job" jokes. Once in awhile we even get something from
someone asking, "How do I get into hand modeling?" Those go unanswered.
Because what am I going to say? Persevere?
My adoptive Aunt Grace got me started. She works as a receptionist at
the Gales Agency, so she knows people. I'd just turned seventeen.
College wasn't in my future, so one Sunday afternoon I took the train
into New York, went over to her small, smelly Soho apartment, and told
her I wanted to model.
"Let's be honest," she said. "Your face is lopsided and your forehead
slopes. Your body, even with work, will never be perfectly
symmetrical." Then she smiled as if she was bestowing the wisdom of the
ages. She took my hands in hers and said, "But
Six years later. Since then, I live only for my hands. No sports, no
cooking, no cleaning, no gardening, no pets. We have sixty-two pairs of
gloves, all designed for protection. We're insured. We try not to go
But this past September something happens that throws me for a loop. We
get called in for an audition. Auditioning is something we almost never
do. Call Toni, look at our portfolio. But it's a huge, worldwide print
promotion for nail enamel. Revlon's Summer Shades. So we go in and
three men and one woman all in suits take us into this room and check
us out under different lighting. Direct, indirect, florescent. It takes
less than five minutes.
When I get home, my agent has already called and left a message. When I
phone her back, she tells me Revlon passed. "They're going for a
different look," she says.
"What kind of different look?" I ask.
"Less 'mommy,'" she tells me.
"I don't have 'mommy' hands," I insist.
"There's nothing wrong with 'mommy' hands," Toni says. "There's Campbell
soup, and Glade Air Freshener, and Mr. Clean, and lots of other places
that call all the time looking for 'mommy' hands."
"I have 'beauty hands!'" I practically scream.
When I hang up the phone, I realize something. I realize I need time
away from my hands. So I enroll in this evening adult education course
over at Yale. It's like three miles from me. It's a non-credit art
appreciation course, anybody with a pen and a check can take it, and I
figure it'll allow me to put the Yale decal in the back window of my
car without being a complete liar.
When I go to the class for the first time, I notice all the
brown-nosers have already squeezed up front. So I go to the back of the
class and sit next to this chunky girl who stares down at her desk and
nervously clicks a ballpoint pen.
"Nice haircut," I say to her.
She looks up at me. "You think?" she asks.
It's no line. Her hair is beautiful. It's chestnut brown, it shimmers,
it cascades perfectly to just beyond her shoulders and frames her
round, somewhat porcine face nicely.
"Where'd you get it done?" I ask.
"Hair 'n' Now," she tells me.
"Well they know their business," I say.
There's this pause for a moment or two before she says, "Hot for
"Yeah," I say.
"So why the gloves?" she asks.
That night I make love to a woman for the first time. Her name is
Bristol and she works for the American Red Cross. Her place is even
closer than mine, an apartment over a place called Scholarly Subs.
Afterward, we sit up in her foldout bed and talk and eat cold pizza and
split a bottle of beer. And when we're done with that I run my
gloveless hands through her perfect, now slightly disarranged hair.
"Unprotected sex," I say, which makes no sense, but we both laugh so
hard we think we might pee, or die, or never stop.
Tai Dong Huai was born in Taizhou, China. Her work has appeared in recent issues/postings of elimae,
Hobart, SmokeLong Quarterly, Word Riot, 971 Menu, and jmww.
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Read TDH's "Natalie" from the archive.
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